So, today is IDAHO. Not an American state, but the acronym for The International Day Against Homophobia. It’s not Pride Day, which is meant to emphasize pride of one’s sexuality and refusal to be ashamed of it. IDAHO is held to highlight that, actually, it is homophobia that is shameful and must be deconstructed in its social logic and fought against openly.
I am currently happy, allergic and overwhelmed by the tasks ahead of me. I got my camera back from the repair shop, at NO COST! Yeah, I am living in Romania, but this was a nice surprise from Flamingo, the authorized service for Sony. One thumb up. So first thing I did was a series of self portraits I won’t post here. But I will post you a riddle. So, riddle me this!
Taking into account yesterday’s deep depression I am willing to consider bipolarity. In fact, it’s little things that make for great effects sometimes. And more wisdom, from Simon, here: Self portrait is the art for lack of a better model.
Oh, wait! you thought I was done? No! The difference between having and not having is what one does with what one has. Ey?
And music wise I invite you to dig Feist: My Moon My Man, Sea Lion Woman, Past in Present, 1 2 3 4, and Brandy Alexander!
You are alone, you are not competing, and yet you come second best. A poor fool wrote the lyrics “Love is not a game, but it looks like I am winning”. Happy people are a minority during a minority of time.
A couple of remarks about me that have made history: “…is such a slut haha. I love blogs” made me smile, “you seem so dry and airtight..” shocked me I kept it, and the most recent one, “what’s up with you? you look like you are… drying”, made me wonder.
Would I have a choice, would I be Euclidean or non-Euclidean geometry? I’d say Euclidean, the others would say non-Euclidean. I like to deceive myself. I look into the light, then I return but I cannot see anymore. I hate dandruff, I use English, I miss words like I miss myself. I am late, I have no idea what to do. Happiness eludes me. I should be happy to just feel plain, but I hate plain. I drink plain water, and less sparkling. I used to drink only sparkling water, why have I started, why have I changed? I talk a lot, yet I say nothing much. I keep silent, but it’s not sign of wiseness. I make sense, I don’t make sense. I remember things, I forget things, finally I just remember I forget things. I drawn meaning in words, I hide. If only clearing a white slate would solve things, and if only that would be as easy as tidying up. I’d tidy it up. It’s clean, but messy, said someone. Well, I am sweet and sour sad. Nobody is impressed. I let the distance grow. I don’t intend to cut anything: cut you some slack, cut the cheese, cut it short.
In real life, I have learnt not to use the epilator on my back. It doesn’t work, except for the rush. I have turned my F717 to the service. I hope to be able to shoot pictures soon. Been granted the golden credit card, I have to stay away for it, otherwise I am talented at getting in debt. The computer I suspect is still ill, Yahoo and Outlook down. I loathe formatting and reinstalling, so for now I guess I am just stalling. I have been to a great movie with a couldn’t be more inappropriate ending. I am leaving for the countryside. That’s all, folks, but life ain’t Looney Tunes.

It contains:
- a cutter, nevermind into what or who you might be running
- a pen, always there, rarely used
- a Vodafone prepaid sim, got it for free. Anyone?
- pay slip, no comment
- ID’s and cards wallet
- fidelity cards, boyfriend picture, small ball-pen drawing of a dog on a small piece of leather
- Internet banking gadget, very useful, but you need an Internet connection and lots of patience with figures
- car key, it gets me places
- plus small flash light
- plus lucky charm from the Italian lottery of yore
- USB A to A, male to female, hi hi hi
- car freshener, it smells like a fresh toilette, I had to hang it outside my balcony to scare the pigeons away (and it failed at that too)
- the book I have been “reading” for quite a while now
- paper tissues, I’ve got an issue if they are not super soft and minty
- Aerius-I-got-allergy, it’s the season
- 2G memory stick called Gantu, it’s the short Romanian for smart, because it’s dressed in, you guessed it, leather and it has an irony finish
- my trustworthy simple old fashioned iPod Shuffle
The thought of the day: “Even when it’s not funny, and it is not always, the least you can do is laugh about it”.
The transition from male to female it’s easier. Only in selected outlets.
(Yes, I have been shopping. It’s a pre-birthday thing. I induced it last night when I occasionally dropped into the conversation the mention of “oh,these shoes I’ve seen”. Mother immediately picked it up and encouraged me: “It’s your birthday soon, you should go buy them. How much do you need?”. I instantly gave the rough estimate, rounded it to a plus, cashed in and off I went this morning. Before I knew it and before anybody could stop me, my shopping bag added a dream dictionary, for the dormant psychologist in me, two leather wrist accessories, one for the casual, from Motor, one for the posh elitist, from Fossil, a pair of Police sunglasses that made the shop assistant exclaim “How quickly you shopped!”, so I had to confess prowling on eye-ware shops for quite a while now. And USB A and A, male to female.)