T0p D0g Reloaded

My Energie sandals are true rain machines. Remember the curse of the white pants? It’s either you have a very good memory, or I just give you the link. I have not been wearing my white pants in a while, but I had various fashionista trials with the said sandals. Yesterday it was the first time they failed to bring rain. There was only a drop in temperature.

This has been only an introduction to my true moaning and mourning. My allergy has not left me. Work still doesn’t work. And unfortunately other things in my life started to copy that pattern. I am talking about my Facebook account, my external hard disk, my project partners and a few other stuff.

On the bright side I have met with I-have-turned-in-my-resignation-within-my-first-eight-hours-at-work-and-of-course-I’ll-tell-you-why (and how) expert, the Stingo. Also, now I can print. In fact I have printed. My Apple based printing is irresistible.

Oh. And if at any time today you meet with a red bright light, don’t worry, it might be the spot on exactly the center of my forehead. It’s so eighties, for me.

Tags: a picture a day, always late in a hurry, amused, apple blogging now, deep-pressed, state of mind needs good governance, stingoo by monsoux
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Have I ever been so paralyzed with indecision, fear and depression? I don’t remember. It’s happy hour for unpleasant cocktails. Only you have to drink and pay too.

Tags: a picture a day, apple blogging now, cheap philosophy doesn't cost anything, deep-pressed by monsoux
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Definitely depressed. The weather, the allergy, everything makes me tired. Not enough sleep, everything seems indeed like an effort. Satisfactions run fast by to quickly fade and make way to problems. I am tired of being late with everything. It’s that need for a clean slate, because everything on your plate now is just too much, too greasy and too getting cold. Not too sure what the future has in store. Happiness is the now, not in the wish. Truly happy people don’t have wishes, but I guess it’s only a matter of expectations and perception.

In my dream this morning we were picknicking on the occasion of a gayfest. We were also being awarded a prize for a website. I am sure it was a dream, because (1) I am currently unable picknick, (2) the gayfest was in fact a harvest celebration in the countryside, the parade was a happy marathon through villages, and the villagers were all in aw and wonder; also it took place somewhere in Transilvania, I could tell by the villagers’ accent, and (3) you cannot be awarded a prize for a project you have not completed.

Yesterday I was advised to wear a protection helmet at the march, but I think the only head gear I am bringing is my brains.

Tags: GayFest, I am what I am and I will survive, Simon says, a picture a day, always late in a hurry, cold, deep-pressed, dog tired, on the road, sometimes I remember my dreams by monsoux
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It was gray. I woke up late and had a slow start. My laptop started to behave funny because of the power cord, and it’s been a while since I don’t have a battery. One of my best friends chose to fight me over the email. I wrote about three messages I have not sent because I don’t want to fight. Apparently my message did not get through. The media went crazy on me. Midday they wanted a declaration and a live appearance in the studio. So I did it. I got two texts afterwards. “I am seeing you on TV”. And “Oh, my, aren’t we full of expertise”. It was not my best TV appearance. So I have replied to the first sender accordingly, she sent back kisses. And to the second I have also replied, but in sarcastic tone and that silenced the exchange. Then we had someones belated birthday party in the ofice, and people were having fun and were being mildly mean. People around me are changing jobs, ending contracts, having babies, being in love, getting back to single-land, not returning calls. Some have even died. On my way back home I saw the aftermath of a car mini-motorcycle accident, adding to the awkwardness of the day. Watching Prison Break did not help. I miss my baby. With him I can more easily ignore all this crap that is not quite making any sense.

Tags: Antwerp, a picture a day, deep-pressed, state of mind needs good governance by monsoux
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El Presidente, Come On Now. And 7% beer. Fuck it all. Almost all.

Tags: deep-pressed, pissed off, state of mind needs good governance by monsoux
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Cluj, TIFF, 4 movies, I liked two: I really hate my job, and Albastru inchis aproape negru (will look for the original title soon), drive back, worried, tired, depressed, no Internet, no computer, no car, no going to work, many tasks, have I mentioned depressed? angry, been crying, no apparent reason, movies, music, depressed, lots of chocolate, I have to hurry finish this post, 118 people are waiting for me to deliver them home in another far away county. I “love”! being the bus-attendant… Birthday approaching. No plan. Depressed.

Tags: deep-pressed, irl, work works by monsoux
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In other news, I have my tickets for George Michael. I’ll be blue.

Tags: a picture a day, deep-pressed, jukebox treasures by monsoux
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I remember once returning from my Romanian tutoring classes in the eight grade, a guy in the street pushed me and as I had fallen another one kicked me in the jaw. I remember the boot approaching, impact and all. It was cold and dark and all of the sudden it was just me out there, on the cold ice. Nineteen years later and I still don’t know who they were and what has actually happened.

For whatever some might say, not everything happens for a reason. God is not busy keeping scores in a little red book and sometimes there is a good chance that when you see the boot approaching you haven’t actually done anything wrong.

Can anyone tell me a good reason for getting out of the house today? The list is open.

Tags: I am what I am and I will survive, Simon says, a picture a day, crushes and natural disasters, deep-pressed, irl, state of mind needs good governance by monsoux
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Latest spam joke: from provides suffering (sic!), subject line is “Play and win”. I guess there is no wining without suffering. Hey people, I have met the contrary. Nobody I care for…

Finally, due to the new Blogger, I am rid of such delightful word productions when I comment on my own posts: kttkc (miau!ish), rellqz (relax!), keokci (misspelled karaoke), eyurl (phantasy), rayicd (bug spray), eycskfu (I don’t give a fuck!), jxelyum (some jelly), rgaaiomo (Japanese barfing), toifu (this one is sooo obvious), nfiarkuo (fearless), vvobabv (people whose name starts with v, when called “baby”), sleelvvyn (what, I only distantly know a Sylvain), uoeefott (foot desease, scratchy and difficult to get rid off). Feel free to add to the list. The game is still on for the rest of you.

Yes, this is one superficial note to mask the inner struggles I am having. As I have almost written on Tina’s present card this Christmas: “Nice fits in 2007″. I love double meanings.

Tags: deep-pressed, irl, state of mind needs good governance by monsoux
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I have been watching Drawing Restraint 9. At first I wanted to say “What a pretentious piece of bullshit!”, but now, three hours later, I am tempted to be more melow. Some of the imagery is beautiful, but the narrative is inexistent. Finally it is just a collection of ocasionally beautiful shots of a well budgeted performance.

In other news, I am furiously erasing all mass text messages as they arrive on my mobile. By the way, I feel like shit.

Tags: T, deep-pressed, me at the movies, state of mind needs good governance by monsoux
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